Forget-Me-Not no Us Chapter 3

"What if I've made the wrong choice? How am I supposed to know?" Castiel, Supernatural

~_._._._~

“Why?!” Midorima cries out desperately. “Why didn't you tell me sooner? We could have gotten you cured!”

Takao winced, not able to look directly at Midorima in the eyes, feeling extremely guilty. He knew his beloved tsundere would react badly at this news that's why he never told Midorima. Takao knew he didn't have long left to live because of his illness. It's been a few years since their eternal vow after their high school graduation and Takao have never told Midorima about his illness until he was submitted into the hospital after collapsing in the apartment condo they are living in together.

“W-Why, Kazunari? Why didn't you tell me sooner?” Midorima clutches his clipboard tightly, unable to hold his feelings back. “I love you. I love you, Kazunari. I wanted to be with you forever.”

Takao twitches slightly at those words, sadness befalls on his face. The fallen hawk slightly, but softly touches Midorima's right cheek. “I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Shin-chan. I knew.... I knew since before I met you I don't have long to live. I couldn't bear letting you know. I never wanted you throw your life away just to save silly old me.”

“Aho! How could you say that! Your life is very precious!” More tears threaten to spill from Midorima's eyes, his face fill with broken heartiness despair. “To me.... To me, you're everything.”

“Doctor Midorima! Please keep your voice in check. I know it's hard for you to endure this, but please keep a cool head.” Doctor Yoshima, Midorima's superior at the Tokyo Hospital, said with a grim expression before sighing. “I knew I shouldn't have assign you to his case. Doctors are not suppose to treat patients from their personal lives. There are high risks of emotional errors that could very possibility kill the patient.”

Midorima grits his teeth. After everything they been though to get to this point. How could his beloved hawk keep such an important information from him. Midorima tries his best to hold back his tears, from breaking down right there, right then.

Takao smiles sadly at Midorima. “It'll be alright, Shin-chan. It's not like it's going to be goodbye forever.”

“But--!” Doctor Yoshima place his hand on Midorima's shoulder and shakes his head before Midorima spoke even further.

Takao smiles, placing his usual smiling face, a hint of sadness behind it. “I'll be fine. Go take care of your other patients. I'm not going anywhere today.”

Midorima grimace than heaves a heavy sigh. For him, for Takao, Midorima agrees to finish his rounds for the days. “I'll come back and check on you after my rounds, Kazunari.”

Takao waves at Midorima goodbye. “Mmm. I'll see you later, Shin-chin.”

After Midorima left the room, shadow covers Takao's face, his expression hard to read, as he slowly puts his hand down. Takao slowly turns his head towards the now setting sun of pink and orange, a small sigh escaping his lips. Now the cat is out of the bag, Takao wonders what he's going to do now. It was never his intention to worry Midorima. Too late now, huh. Maybe, just maybe he should have told Midorima so much sooner. Takao laughs sadly. Takao clicks a button to call in a nurse.

“Yes Takao-san?” A young nurse who's maybe slightly older than Takao. Beautiful, but nothing compare to his Shin-chin's beauty. “Do you need some help?”

Takao smiles at the nurse. “Do you mind if I have some papers, something to write with, and an envelop?”

“Sure. Right away.” The nurse gives a small bow and left to complete Takao's request.

I wish I can watch you play basketball one more time, Shin-chan. I love you with all my heart. I'm glad I got the chance to meet and fall in love with you. Thank you for everything.....

After Midorima finished his rounds, Midorima checks with Doctor Yoshima about Takao's latest test results and conditions. Unfortunately, the news isn't great. Midorima couldn't believe it, but it's all there. Midorima's time with his beloved is growing ever so short. How... How could Midorima not see it earlier? He could brought all of Takao's lucky items as well. Maybe, just maybe Takao's luck would turn around. That everything will become a dream. That Takao really isn't stricken with an incurable disease.

“Is... Is there really no hope for him, Yoshima-sensei?” Midorima asked hoarsely, not wanting to hear the answer he knew deep within his heart.

“Yes. I'm sorry. There's nothing we can do. Even if we're able to somehow submit him into a trial being done overseas, there is no guarantee he'll make it into the cut. Getting into the experimental trials is highly competitive and the higher priorities are always the top the list.” Doctor Yoshima explains. “As a young doctor yourself, you should know that fact by now.”

Midorima clutches his jaws tightly, his hands slightly quivering. He knew all that, yet it's still hard to accept those facts. There will be never be anyone else be Takao. The stupid annoying hawk was his everything. How? How can he live without his beloved stupid annoying hawk? Suddenly a code blue alert echos in the hospital halls.

'It can't be?!' Midorima gasps in horror, fearing the worse. 'Kazunari! Kazunari! Please let it not be you. Please Kamina. Please don't take Kazunari away from me. I can't bear to leave him yet. Hang in there. Don't you dare die before I'm there.'

Midorima prays. Prays with all his heart his fear has not yet come to pass. He mustn't give into tears threatening to well up. Never giving up hope that everything will be fine. That he and Takao will get through this wall together. All the shit they've been through would not be for naught. Midorima place his hand over his heart as he pray to his horoscope god over and over again. A long night awaits....